۱۳۸۸ مرداد ۲۷, سه‌شنبه

آفتاب از فروغ فرخزاد

آفتاب می شود
نگاه کن که غم درون دیده ام
چگونه قطره قطره آب می شود
چگونه سایهء سیاه سرکشم
اسیر دست آفتاب می شود
نگاه کن
تمام هستیم خراب می شود
شراره ای مرا به کام می کشد
مرا به اوج می بر
د مرا به دام می کشد
نگاه کن
تمام آسمان من پر از شهاب می شود
تو آمدی ز دورها و دورها
ز سرزمین عطرها و نورها
نشانده ای مرا کنون به زورقی
ز عاجها، ز ابرها، بلورها
مرا ببر امید دلنواز من ببر به شهر شعرها و شورها
به راه پرستاره می کشانی ام
فراتر از ستاره می نشانی ام
نگاه کن
من از ستاره سوختم
لبالب از ستارگان تب شدم
چو ماهیان سرخ رنگ ساده دل
ستاره چین برکه های شب شدم
چه دور بود پیش از این زمین ما
به این کبود غرفه های آسمان
کنون به گوش من دوباره می رسد
صدای تو صدای بال برفی فرشتگان
نگاه کن که من کجا رسیده ام
به کهکشان، به بیکران، به جاودان
کنون که آمدیم تا به اوجها
مرا بشوی با شراب موجها
مرا بپیچ در حریر بوسه ات
مرا بخواه در شبان دیرپا
مرا دگر رها مکن
مرا از این ستاره ها جدا مکن
نگاه کن که موم شب براه ما
چگونه قطره قطره آب می شود
صراحی دیدگان من به لای لای گرم تو
لبالب از شراب خواب می شود
نگاه کن
تو میدمی و آفتاب می شود

۱۳۸۸ مرداد ۲۲, پنجشنبه

Almost over

This year would be the last year of my university. I can't believe it's almost over. I have to start looking for a job, I should go to job fairs and career fairs. I Am kind of anxious. I really had high expectations in terms of the job and salary. I don't know if those expectations will be met in this economy & with my academic background. I tried (almost) my best & will continue to do what I think is right to achieve my career goal.
But what saddens me the most is the fact that it is in fact almost over. I'm gonna miss school. I'm gonna miss UofT. It might seem odd that I’m starting to miss it a year before it all finishes.
For me school started off being like an ointment for a wounds of a child who didn’t have a particularly happy family life. Life didn't have to be so hard in school. I got to make alliances as a child, make friends, make enemies, love, hate... Maybe like a safe haven where I experienced emotions I didn’t know before. I did well in my studies, I was appreciated for my effort and was favoured by teachers. I wasn’t specifically cared for or really treasured before that.
That continued to be the case until I came to Canada. My life during high school in Canada was hell. Maybe it wasn't as much about high school itself, maybe it was more because of my personal life, but my life as a teenager in Canada was not good. I'm glad it's over.
Then in university I got to meet new people with new ideas. I got to grow up while I was in UofT. I got a whole new outlook. I got to come out of my small match box. UofT has to be one of my favourite places. Its beauty, modern combined with old, all those people walking around...
This was the first time in my life that I didn't do that well in school in terms of GPA. It doesn't matter what marks I end up getting. I rather treasure the experiences I get to have here in this university.

Maybe for a lot of people these all seem odd. Maybe it is hard for some people to understand how school can be of such significance to a person. I don't know what others think, but I can sure tell what's in my mind & that is I’m gonna miss it all, all the people, the carelessness, the stupidity, the freedom...

Bebar ey baran,bebar....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpIpqK88BKI