کاش اینجا بودی

به تو فکر می‌کنم. شاید بدانی‌ و شاید نه.

اما دانستن یا ندانستن ات چه تفاوت دارد؟ اگر بدانی که من به تو فکر می‌کنم و به سراغم نیایی، که پس محبت من بیهوده است. اگر ندانی پس نادانی‌ و از حال آدمان بی‌ خبر، و مرا با اهالی بی‌ خبرستان راهی‌ نیست. و در هر دو حال مرا به جز پریشانی راهی‌ نیست.
کاش اینجا بودی.

"There are six billion people in this world and sometimes, all you need is one"

آدم های جالب

واقعاً آدم‌ها جالب هستند. آدم‌ها برای کسی که ماه هاست از زندگیشون خارج شده کس دیگری رو که سعی‌ برای ورود به زندگیشون داره رو عقب میزنن.
من خیلی‌ وقته که فکر می‌کنم آدما با خاطراتشون ,چه خوب و چه بد, خوش ترن تا با واقعیت جلوی چشمشون.

آفتاب از فروغ فرخزاد

آفتاب می شود

نگاه کن که غم درون دیده ام

چگونه قطره قطره آب می شود

چگونه سایهء سیاه سرکشم

اسیر دست آفتاب می شود

نگاه کن

تمام هستیم خراب می شود

شراره ای مرا به کام می کشد

مرا به اوج می بر

د مرا به دام می کشد

نگاه کن

تمام آسمان من پر از شهاب می شود

تو آمدی ز دورها و دورها

ز سرزمین عطرها و نورها

نشانده ای مرا کنون به زورقی

ز عاجها، ز ابرها، بلورها

مرا ببر امید دلنواز من ببر به شهر شعرها و شورها

به راه پرستاره می کشانی ام

فراتر از ستاره می نشانی ام

نگاه کن

من از ستاره سوختم

لبالب از ستارگان تب شدم

چو ماهیان سرخ رنگ ساده دل

ستاره چین برکه های شب شدم

چه دور بود پیش از این زمین ما

به این کبود غرفه های آسمان

کنون به گوش من دوباره می رسد

صدای تو صدای بال برفی فرشتگان

نگاه کن که من کجا رسیده ام

به کهکشان، به بیکران، به جاودان

کنون که آمدیم تا به اوجها

مرا بشوی با شراب موجها

مرا بپیچ در حریر بوسه ات

مرا بخواه در شبان دیرپا

مرا دگر رها مکن

مرا از این ستاره ها جدا مکن

نگاه کن که موم شب براه ما

چگونه قطره قطره آب می شود

صراحی دیدگان من به لای لای گرم تو

لبالب از شراب خواب می شود

نگاه کن

تو میدمی و آفتاب می شود

Almost over

This year would be the last year of my university. I can't believe it's almost over. I have to start looking for a job, I should go to job fairs and career fairs. I Am kind of anxious. I really had high expectations in terms of the job and salary. I don't know if those expectations will be met in this economy & with my academic background. I tried (almost) my best & will continue to do what I think is right to achieve my career goal.
But what saddens me the most is the fact that it is in fact almost over. I'm gonna miss school. I'm gonna miss UofT. It might seem odd that I’m starting to miss it a year before it all finishes.
For me school started off being like an ointment for a wounds of a child who didn’t have a particularly happy family life. Life didn't have to be so hard in school. I got to make alliances as a child, make friends, make enemies, love, hate... Maybe like a safe haven where I experienced emotions I didn’t know before. I did well in my studies, I was appreciated for my effort and was favoured by teachers. I wasn’t specifically cared for or really treasured before that.
That continued to be the case until I came to Canada. My life during high school in Canada was hell. Maybe it wasn't as much about high school itself, maybe it was more because of my personal life, but my life as a teenager in Canada was not good. I'm glad it's over.
Then in university I got to meet new people with new ideas. I got to grow up while I was in UofT. I got a whole new outlook. I got to come out of my small match box. UofT has to be one of my favourite places. Its beauty, modern combined with old, all those people walking around...
This was the first time in my life that I didn't do that well in school in terms of GPA. It doesn't matter what marks I end up getting. I rather treasure the experiences I get to have here in this university.

Maybe for a lot of people these all seem odd. Maybe it is hard for some people to understand how school can be of such significance to a person. I don't know what others think, but I can sure tell what's in my mind & that is I’m gonna miss it all, all the people, the carelessness, the stupidity, the freedom...

Bebar ey baran,bebar....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpIpqK88BKI

Mihan

Doosti dar status facebookesh neveshte bood:
وطن يعني دويدن در پي نان وطن يعني کمک کردن به لبنان وطن يعني عرب را چاق کردن معلم هاي خود را داغ کردن وطن يعني خريد تايد و شامپو وطن يعني رئيس جمهور هالو وطن يعني صف نون و صف شير وطن يعني همش درگير درگير وطن يعني همين بنزين، همين نفت همين نفتي که توي سفره ها رفت وطن يعني که اصلاحات "چيني" وطن يعني که روي خوش نبيني وطن يعني همين آيينه دق وطن يعني خلايق هر چه لايق
in neveshte ra man ghable entekhabat khoonde boodam, va oon moghe be nazaram dorost bood. vali be nazaram oomad ke ye version bade entekhabatesho khodam benevisam:
ورژن بعد انتخابات دهم: وطن یعنی ندا.وطن یعنی اشکان.وطن یعنی سهراب.وطن یعنی مادر سهراب.وطن یعنی از جان گذشته.وطن یعنی سرزمین دلیران.وطن یعنی آزادی. وطن یعنی امید دوباره.

When even David goes green....

Florence goes green for Iran.

The sympathy that people around the world show for Iran really flatters me.

Here is the clip:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARWuyHiX2ug&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fwww%2Eirandokht%2Ecom%2Fnews%2Freadnews%2Ephp%3FnewsID%3D47301&feature=player_embedded

Pictures from:http://www.irandokht.com/news/readnews.php?newsID=47301

Animals

Amazing:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EwNJr58Z_k4&feature=related

Canadians & Politics

Today,in the corner of Bloor and Yonge, there was a table set up with a poster hanging from it that read “Hitler with a smile”, which was basically Obama’s picture with a Hitler-liked mustache. They were giving out brochures. I really didn't bother to go to talk to the people at that table as I was coming back from a work meeting and was too tired.
I don’t wanna get into whether I agree with such comparison or not. But what amazed me was that I see Canadians care more about American politics that politics in their homeland. I have never seen people set up a table in middle of Toronto criticizing Stephan Harper or any other government official.
Yes, whatever happens in US effects us directly. But so does our own governments. I’m planning to vote on elections from now on. What’s the point of having a democracy if you don’t use it?

Sanctions

And they say sanctions on Iran are not working:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/32126448/ns/world_news-mideastn_africa
2nd incident of its kind in the last 10 days.

Kiosk, Scandinavia and Racism

New video by Kiosk:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ie5qP1lDE_8
I love both Kiosk & Namjoo. They are some of the few Iranian artists after revolution who actually "work" on their music. The video is not that bad. I specially love their cloths.But the video itself seems kind of boring. Anywho I love the song, and the cloths, so this video gets 4.5/5.

--->( the video is actually from Saya Nova's " Colour of the pomegranates". http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Color_of_Pomegranates" . The video is beautiful on its own, but I guess it just doesn't go with the music)
Another thing: It amazes me how alot of the good Iranian musicians are Iranians who live in Scandinavia: Laleh, Abjeez or even Arash ( I really don't consider Arash a good musician... but none the less his songs are worth hearing a couple of times). For whatever reason Scandinavian countries seem to be working for Iranian artists. I was thinking it would be a good idea to charter a plane from LA and have those cheesy pop singers live there for a while.

Scandinavia oh Scandinavia, how I’d love to go there… sigh… I remember when as a kid I looked at pictures from Sweden and Finland, thinking those lands are the most beautiful landscapes in the world, envying their gorgeous traditional dresses, wishing I lived in their suburbs… I ADORED Europe as a child, right now maybe not as much, hearing all about the racism there and all…But as “dokhtar lor” says: “tehroon, tehroon ke migan shahre ghashangie, ama mardomesh bade” (This is a very famous quote from the first movie in Persian language,http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lor_Girl, in which a simple village girl from Lur tribes goes to Tehran, and when asked what she though of Tehran she replies”Tehran, Tehran has such beauty, but people there are horrible”). So yeah… europa, europa ke migam shahre ghashangie, ama mardomesh badan.
Then again as a child I never liked China that much... it didn't seem that interesting to me but now as a grown up I'd love to visit there sometime just because I had pleasant interaction with Chinese people in Canada.

Randomness

• I basically did a lot of shopping today. Not that I bought many stuff, but I spent a lot. It’s not my fault, everything is on sale and I really didn’t shop that much this summer. I bought some massage bar and a foundation & paid big $. I’m not proud of myself. With the economic situation like this it is not a good idea to generously spend $55 for a foundation.
• I really would like to stop reading the news on Iran. It makes me utterly depressed and sad. But I can’t help thinking about Iran and what’s going on there now.
• I’m taking a summer course. I was going for an A+ as my GPA was pretty low during school year. But I’m still on a B. I don’t know what is it with me & B. For whatever reason it seems I haven’t been able to go beyond B for the last couple of yrs. It kind of sucks.
  * I am addicted to youtube. I literally log on youtube every hour or so when I’m home. I really don’t know what I did online before I found youtube.
  I remember we first bought a compute I was 12 or something, and after a while I found out about chatrooms (LOL). I remember thinking what did I do with computer before that? Another great moment in my life was finding out about messengers! Then social networking website like Orkut, Facebook, etc. whenever I found one of these great creation of human mind (!) I thought to myself what did I do before this?
• I was reading somewhere that teens today are having less sex. This link (http://www.nytimes.com/2009/01/27/health/27well.html ) says that it has fallen by 7% compare to 20 yrs ago (not that I was a teenager then, but you get the point!). I believe teens today are certainly very educated about sex, but not necessarily are doing it. Interesting....
  
• I’m thinking about getting a new hair cut. I get tired of same style very fast, and I have been keeping my current style for at least 8 months now. Time for a change? I’m open to suggestions!

JAZ JAZ JAZ

I have meant to start to a blog for a long time, since I was 12 or something. I actually did make another blog a long time ago, made a couple of entries and finally just gave up. I don’t remember the address so I decided to start this one.
This blog will reflect my personal thoughts, from makeup and beauty, to politics and personal relationships. I will post in English and Persian.